Eternal

"you don't tell me things, joel.

i`m an open book.

i tell you everything..

every damn embarrassing thing.

you don't trust me."

"people have to share things, joel.

that's what intimacy is"

"it would be different

if we could just have another go-around"

you're a stupid girl

way to get my hopes up.

i brought it upon myself though.

seriously, why do i do it to myself?

why do i let myself think that everything will be okay

when it won't ever be the same.

setting myself up for failure, here.

i'm really dumb for even thinking it would be fine.

shhhiefoaupaogs;

"yooouur sooo in love, its ridic!"

IT IS RIDICULOUS.

AND ITS STUPID.

and i ABSOLUTELY HATE that i cant change that.

i SHOULD NOT be feeling this way right now,

i disappoint myself

sometimes

OFTEN

still at schooooool..

today i leaned my head on my best friends shoulder and admitted:

"i miss him.."

today was a whatever day for the both of us.

hers was probably suckier than mine, even though suckier isn't a word.

gonna watch watchmen later,

so hopefully that'll turn out okay.

watchmen was good !

or at least i thought it was.

everyone was tired by 3am,

so they all peaced outttt !

i was kinda hoping for something..

but ill get over it.

to all the mama's:

you are strong (:

Daily Capricorn Horoscope - 6th March, 2009

Significant others are your heart's priority as the Moon moves through your seventh house. Relationships and all they encompass are in focus so remind yourself to explore healthy compromises. You can achieve more working together than you can alone - either personally with a partner or friend, or professionally with a mentor or key business contact. If your work is based around one on one relationships you may be busier now as well. Take on nurturing or protective roles with loved ones. Caring for those around you is important whilst the Moon is in your partnership 

here i am, with my heart on the floor

"lock =] dude i freaking love u. =] i swear no one has ever made me smile as much as u have and ive never thought id find someone as perfect as u."

even with bad grammar, you made me smile.

sucksssssssss

i was reminiscing

but i shouldnt have done that.

remember being completely head over heels for each other ?

we used to be quite silly

i can't fall out of love

i can't fall out of love.

so what the heck am i supposed to do ?

i hate hanging on to something that won't work..

something i know you don't want or need to work.

and i hate that i can't control myself.

i guess i'm back to feeling shitty ?

i really shouldn't be, but it hurts me just as much.

because now i REALLY can't stop wondering.

i should be happy with what i have, right?

but i'm not.

i'm a little confused.

but it's probably just me overreacting.

i wanna ask,

but i don't wanna chase you away.

i can't get that other thought out of my head.

it's really almost killing me.

i wish i could tell, but it would do no good.

i finished my homework before midnight today,

FOR ONCE,

and now i can't even sleep.

dont like secrets ):

JUST LIKE A HURRICANE

JUST LIKE A HURRICANE

THE WAY YOU BREAK EVERYTHING THAT COMES IN YOUR WAY

JUST LIKE A HURRICANE

JUST LIKE A HURRICANE

THE WAY YOU BROKE MY HEART AND NOW IM LEFT WITH THE PAIN

AFTER THE HURRICANE

p.s. i'm a horrid child ):

seriously,

i think i eff'd up.

so for lent,

i gave up something i really really had to stop doing.

and so far, i'm pulling through.

i don't wanna do it, and its real difficult,

but i haven't checked once.

for those of you who know what i gave up,

you know what i meannn.

i have a research paper due on tuesday,

and i still have not started.

seriously,

i know it's overrated but

FML

you know those "love is..." comics ?

i hate that i love those