showed up to work 2 hours early

and now i am bored -___-

but here's my horoscope !

or part of it at least:

You need to deal with someone who's trying to push you to the side, but they aren't counting on your stubbornness. It's not that hard to hold on and then to push back when they're off-balance.

UGH I COULD BE AT HOME READING NEW MOON !

but no -__-

jeffrey toldme i had work at 8, when i have work at 10.

im wasting precious time here, dangett !

but im pretty angry with edward cullen.

how could he just LEAVE bella.. just like that ?

this story sounds familiar..

interesting (:

Capricorn horoscope:

You get a chance to initiate a conversation with a cutie you want to know better.

Overview:

its the best possible time for you to take on a new project-- at work, at home, or for fun. you may not feel quite in the groove yet, but the adjustment period shouldn't take long.

it's sorta funny how sometimes

these things can be surprisingly accurate (:

manday

First day back in LA

woke up at 730 in the morn to be at work by 8.

had a nice long 8 hour shift with carla, athur, and justin.

ohhh boy, do they make me laugh sometimes (:

so my way back home was pretty interesting.

i was walking to my bus stop, and as i was walking,

a teenage boy on his bike said to me "you're beautiful."

haha and it wasn't creepy at all !

it sounded so sincere, which made my day because i knew that, really, i looked like crap.

i didn't fix my hair, and my bangs were up cause they were messed when i awoke haha.

one comment from someone can really make your day no matter how small.

so anyways, as i was sitting on the bus, an old filpino man walks on.

he sits across from me, and the first thing i notice is that he's wearing incredibly short shorts !

haha the second thing i noticed was that he had a small tattoo of an octopus on his thigh !

it made me giggle, and i tried to take a picture,

but my camera phone wasn't good enough.

also, on the bus was some mean middle-aged man.

he was trying to move to the back of the bus.

the man he was trying to pass was on the phone at the time

so the middle-aged guy got angry and kept telling him to move away.

the guy on the phone said "i was talking on the phone" meaning he didn't hear the other guy when he asked him to move.

the middle-aged guy was so rude that he kept telling him to "get off the fucking phone."

and even when the guy on the phone kept quiet out of courtesy, the other man kept on cussing.

it surprises me how rude people can be even to those who mind their own business.

i wish that everyone would just get along, but that's quote impossible, sadly.

so i realized, that i REALLY REALLY need to move on.

i can find someone who cares about me just as much as i care for them.

even though i still love you know who, i can't wait forever.

and im pretty sure that nothing will happen again anyways, the way i see it.

so i think i may start searchin again.

im not saying im gonna trust any guy again, but i should be happy again.

i'd like to have the butterflies in my tummy all over again.

and i would like to be a special someone again.

it's kind of exciting, but im kind of nervous.

and knowing me, by tonight i might even change my mind.

i'm indecisive that way.

today's horoscope !:

Quickie

Watch yourself in flirtatious situations. Make sure not to take them too seriously.

Overview

You're feeling quite stable today and much more ready for whatever may be coming. In fact, it's easier than ever for you to profit from the small stuff that is popping up all around you.

quote:

"don't you see?

That's what proves me right. I care the most, because if i can do it"--

he shook his head, seeming to struggle with the thought

-- "if leaving is the right thing to do,

then i'll hurt myself to keep from hurting you,

to keep you safe."

CAPRICORN DAILY OVERVIEW

Quickie

The time is right to get active -- if you are having any doubts, just ignore them.

Overview

A message comes from out of town -- or from someone you haven't met yet -- that is equal parts intriguing and exciting. Your great energy helps you really connect with this person.

Daily Flirt:

Get your ex to pick up the phone this time -- or, if that's too creepy, just find a way to reach out to that one friend of yours who's distant and mostly offline You may even write a real letter!

Daily Singles:

Who says history can't repeat itself? If it didn't work out the first time, try it again. Dust off that old black book and call up someone who got away, if it's appropriate. Whatever the problem was initially -- timing or an ex -- has since been resolved.

finally, once again, i blog.

i haven't blogged in 4 days.

the is a record for me !

i guess my spring break has been slightly busy.

or busy enough to keep me from blogging.

i usually blog late at night, but lately i've been getting home around 3am.

for some reason, right now, i find it hard to express my feelings.

i don't know what to say as to how i'm feeling..

or maybe i just don't know how i'm feeling at all.

i've got friends slightly back in order, 

but i still feel a little bit out of place sometimes.

family is going okay for now.

and as for that other topic, well.. it's complicated.

as usual.

i guess there's a part of me that now refuses to talk about IT.

it's good in a way, but i wish that i could fully express myself without receiving negative feedback.

in response to a part of joseph's blog:

people DO get coach, louis vuitton, juicy, etc just to feel good.

it "makes them feel better about themselves"

so what's wrong with that ?

maybe they are having an off day.

maybe they need something to comfort them.

not just words of wisdom, but something to touch and feel..

something they can be proud of buying.

dono, it's just me.

there are some people out there who get these luxury things just for kicks,

but other people have their reasons.

it's not always just for show.

p.s. don't hate me, tinanana (:

that part of your blog just caught my attention.

i've decided to go back to LA tonight.

for some reason, i feel like i get worse and worse when im here.

it's not exactly good for me.

LA will give me time to get away.

there, i have 0 distractions.

p.s. i bought the first two twilight books

and finally saw the movie.

eff, im turning into jess ad crystal ! haha (:

i just couldn't help it.

if you watch the movie, you will understand !

and to better understand the movie, i bought the books !

i wanna know the juicy details that weren't part of the movie.

edward cullen just makes me want to find a man like him.

i'm NOT just saying i'm in love with his face,

but his character is so beautiful.

08

woahh,

i cold tear drop fell from my eye.

that's never happened before !

i was watching our graduating video.

ughh, why couldnt it last forever ?

you know, maybe i hang out with his friends

because they were my friends too !

maybe i want to hang out with them

because i live in LA and hardly see anyone.

i don't do it just to find my way to him.

if anything, i want to get away from him.

but everyone sees it as me trying to hang out with them

just so i can see him.

well open up your eyes,

and realize that they were my friends the whole senior year.

i dropped my own friends to hang out with his

because he didn't like hanging out with mine too much.

i don't know what to think of everyone.

oijefosgjl these are hard times.

i wanna fast forward.

dear

jessica robles !

i miss you !

i haven't seen that girl in years,

and im really starting to miss her ! ):

haha but i hopppe i see her soon.

but other than that !

i am doing just okay.

im giving myself a break from you know who.

im putting myself on a time out, i guess.

i have to learn how to discipline myself.

im not really sure how im feeling right now.

it makes me sad when on TV i see people getting back together,

or when i see couples striving to be together.

when a guy fights for the love of his life,

it makes me want to go out and find someone like that for me.

just to make sure it really does exist.

or when a guy just gives up,

I JUST WANT TO SHAKE HIM.

i wanna knock some sense into people like that.

the kind who give up.

anywho, yesterday was such a good day butttt..

I GOT SO FREAKING FAT !

yesterday we talked and ate allllll day long ! haha

it was cute, but not good for my tummy !

it was a cutesy day with cheryl, kees, lauren, and crystal.

guppy's for lunch date, back to crystals, then to coldstones/robeks, back to crystals again to make pasta and brownies while brian and "mr. dionisio" came over, and then watched GG (:

daily horoscope:

Quickie

You'll get closer to your goal today, but don't start cheering until you are there.

Overview

You need to make a change -- and it's not easy. The good news is that your personal energy is all focused and directed toward making the most of your life and creating positive outcomes!