lots has gone on since the last blog.

too much has gone on, that i can't really remember.

some days are good, and some are bad.

things are slowly getting better,

and I`M slowly getting better

although i still wish things were the way they used to be.

i got my DLAND pass last night,

and went to lauren's house (:

which was awkward for everyone at first,

but things improved, thank goodness.

i figured out that i`m taking the next quarter off

so once i`m done after these three weeks,

i`m off for about 16 weeks.

good right? but i need to find a new job.

unless i wanna stay in LA :/

i don't wanna, but we'll see.

my parents gave away my dog this morning,

without telling me to come back home.

i didn't even get to say goodbye,

and when i realized he was gone this morning,

i cried about it ):

i love you, puppy !

and i miss you !

i hope he has a nicer home with new owners.

and even though he isn't ours anymore,

i'd rather have him that way than ignored at the pound ):

some feelings returned last night for a bit,

but i cant let things get to me.

can't give myself any false hope.

it was nice though.

and i think i found myself a new pong partner

mmmmmaybe

just like his fave quote for the night,

"life is rough"

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hurts

i was doing

PERFECTLY FINE.

i'm pretty tired of rich snobby girls at FIDM

who think that they don't need manners.

i'm sick of hearing advice that isn't true,

or that won't ever work.

i appreciate it, but just don't.

i'm so over this stupid hair dying war.

i wanted dark hair, so i did it.

get over it. it's mine and i'll do what i want with it.

i'm tired of the fact that the only way people know the difference between kees and i are our hair colors.

if you were our true friends,

you would be able to tell who is who

without relying on who the blonde one is and who the brunette is.

i'm really tired of them telling me to eat.

because I DO EAT.

but there is one thing that i still can't get over or forget.

got it from the newspaper today:

love is...

what lies ahead.

she's lucky

ohhhhhhh, i really really wonder.

and i hate that i wonder ):

but i'll take what i can get, and i know that the best i can get is something like a mutual friendship.

i'm okay though, cause it's a lot better than nothing.

i missed you terribly,

but friday was nice.

reality is hitting me in the head,

and i know i should get back to it instead of daydreaming all day long.

i recently realized that i'm kind of a huge day dreamer :/

it's good, but not good for me.

i need to realize that nothing will happen,

i need to stop getting my hopes up,

i need to stop believing that for some odd reason,

you will want to come back.

i know i sound like a crazy, so i'll stop.

don't screw up the best thing in your life

just because you're a little bit unsure of who you are.

I WOULD WRITE A BLOG AND THEN ACCIDENTALLY DELETE IT 

-__________-

oh fml, hahaha

anyways !

THURSDAY:

my dad picked me up an hour late from school..

tipsy...

haha i thought it was kinda funny.

and then once i got back to walnut,

immediately went to get molca salsa with pei pei, eric yi, and james !

ohhhh james, you're kinda a crazy !

then slept over at pei pei's house where we didn't sleep til 5am.

we had goooood talks.

FRIDAY:

mattyboo wakes me up at 1 -____-

got ready for a little at cheryl's

got ready some more at my house.

and then left for mattyboo's house !

met up with everyone there, and then left for the DB oak tree lanes,

which is our new tradition ((((((:

i'm so gay and i love it when my friends all get together again.

of course i played two more sucky games, but it doesn't matter (:

and after bowling, we all went back to rick's house to,

of course, play some pong.

haha cheryl and i got one game -___-

where crystal and rick killed us,

but no fair they're both real good and kept making the same cups !

haha it was funny though (:

left to eat at guppy's with mattyboo, pei pei, crystal, lauren, and jordan.

food is always good though, so i don't haf to elaborate in that (:

went BACK to rick's where i played really good pong ! ):

but no one was there to see it.

what a fail -____-

walmart again, but with mattyboo and pei pei this time.

got back home at 5AM.

i'm pretty dead right now -____-

overall, i had a good two days.

today should be another juan (:

took the bus this morning,

and i swear one of the guys next to me smelled like weeeeed !

it was either the cholo lookin' guy on my right,

or the little old man on my left.

got to work, and people liked my hairs (:

i got a "you look so seductive" and that was pretty cool.

even people i didn't know complimented my hair.

they're people who have been to the cafe and seen me.

other interesting things of the day:

a lady who was with her daughter gave me a tip and insisted that i take it, and when i tried to give it back to her she said:

"it's okay, we're canadian!"

haha she was so nice (:

she told me to put it in my pocket and keep it for myself

since we don't have a tip jar in the cafe.

also, a girl came into the cafe today.

she was walking around barefoot -____-

i don't know whyyyy.

but if that's what makes her happy, then good for her !

ran into some odd people today, but it was a good day (:

why would i want a bland day anyways ?!

life experiences, life experiences.