i need a friend

why the eff do i do this to myself all day long?

just a big disappointment.

im a big disappointment and everything else just

disappoints me.

la;iwjdl;ilj im just really frustrated right now.

im suppressing my tears.

lefjlfj cant breathe.

i miss real good friend time.

i miss having someone to talk to no matter what time it is.

i miss being cared about.

i miss my old house.

i miss the old days.

i hate not having my own room.

i hate not sleeping in my own bed.

i hate asking people for rides.

i hate not having my own cars.

i hate that i couldnt go back to la just so i could pick up a few things.

i hate gaining weight and looking ugly.

i hate how nobody knows how i feel.

i hate being left out.

i hate feeling a lone.

i hate feeling broken