what's wrong with me ?

this morning, i woke up to a sharp pain around my chest area.

it felt like a bullet went through me

because the pain was also directly behind my aching chest area

leading to my back.

i couldn't really breathe and was aching for a few minutes.

then a fell asleep again.

sunday morning i yawned

and then got a cramp in my neck.

it was horrid.

today i cut my hands twice,

burnt myself with hot water twice,

and broke my freaking nail -__-

that's what i call a hard day's work ! haha

it was alright, i was a trooper through it all.

im used to getting random cuts on my hands from work.

it sucks, but ill survive !

also, i have a big pimple stress pimple on my forehead !

and it wont leave because i forgot to put pimple stuff on it last night.

or i was just to immersed in my book (:

and now i am finally home, sitting on the floor in my white tee (:

i was on the phone last night until 2am.

i have a lot of things that i need to deal with.

a lot of things that i just need to forget.

life isn't fair, and i know that.

but i keep asking myself why.

i want to know why life is unfair.

i want to know how you got over it so quickly,

so that i can finally do the same.

i want to know how long it will take me to be happy again.

i want to know if i will ever TRULY be happy again.

i don't know..

i'd just like to know a lot of things.

i hate that despite how much i dislike you right now,

i'd still like to hear the sound of your voice ):