here`s to you

everything was going good.
but it only lasted a few days.
and i should have known.

and now i`m forced to forget what we had.
and i`m forced to not be your friend.
end of it.
even when i was so sick of trying, i kept going anyways.
but i can finally leave you alone now.
i want to give you what you want,
and apparently i`m not it.
i tried really hard, i swear i did.
i love you,
and i`m always going to love you.
no matter what.
that`s always been the case.
but i think it`s time for me to let you go now.
i don`t want you to end up hating me.

i can`t even breathe
this is so stupid.

i thought that my heart was done hurting by now.
but the pain is just as bad as it was a month ago.

i don`t think that you`re even hurting at all
and that`s what hurts the most.