7 18 09

im allowed to be scared.

a promise in the dark

Listen…

Can’t count on you most of all when I really need it

It’s the simple things that you do really hurt my feelings

The more I try, the more I’m starting to see it

This can’t work anymore, than you believe it

Goodbye may come as a shock

Even though I love you a lot

I’ve given every breath I’ve got

Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

And how many times I gave my heart

To how many times we fell apart

And it equals

A promise in the dark

So don’t promise me

And how many times I gave you me

Divided by so many memories

And it equals

A promise in the dark

So don’t promise me

Listen…

I just don’t know what the problem is, what the deal is

Was I there too much, did I move too fast, I couldn’t see it?

All these promises are probably how you deal with it

I’m tired of hearing you say your innocent

Don’t think I forgot

Because I really didn’t, who cares if you’re lieing or not

I’ve given every breath I’ve got

Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

And how many times I gave my heart

To how many times we fell apart

And it equals

A promise in the dark

So don’t promise me

And how many times I gave you me

Divided by so many memories

And it equals

A promise in the dark

So don’t promise me

We all make mistakes

Sometimes we do desperate things

What does it prove? NOTHING

And you never do nothing wrong

Then what took you so long, took you so long

Cuz I keep, keep hanging on, keep, keep hanging on

And how many times I gave my heart

To how many times we fell apart

And it equals

A promise in the dark

So don’t promise me

And how many times I gave you me

Divided by so many memories

And it equals

A promise in the dark

So don’t promise me

So don’t promise me

7 17 09

i never know.

so indecisive.

GRAVITY

4 signs

not easy

break down

torn

i really like my myspace song. i've listened to it about ten times every night for a week straight. so school hasn't been so bad. there is only one class out of four that i dislike. marketing events. its about event planning and such. not for me. but im required to take it anyways. effective speaking isn't so bad. i know one person in the class. my teacher said we were a very good looking class right after we went up to inform the class about each other. pretty cool. lighting techniques should be fun when i make a light fixture out of recycled goods. computer graphics is whatever. im bad at photoshop but i like it better than illustrator. hopefully i can balannce everything. work is still a drag but we've gotten new workers so hopefully ill end up being less tired. and now im home in westco/walnut. feeling the way i often but shouldn't feel. hmm i suppose ill survive though. things never turn out exactly right. people wanna be noticed. today i had to walk one giant block to my bus stop because the sidewalk by my house was coned off. i don't think ill be attending the game on sunday. first one ill miss. sort of sad.

7 13 09

at the cafe today:

"do you need anything ?"

"i need lots of things.. but you guys cant give it all to me"

haha i thought that was funny.

k that's all !

7 11 09

i thoughttttt.

joke's on me, i spose !

7 7 09

some people enjoy drama and gossip all day long.

maybe you have to start realizing things from other peoples' outlooks.

maybe i was wrong for letting people see things through my eyes.

or maybe i wasn't.

i was forgetting too.

but was it wrong that i wanted people to know how i felt?

oh well.

not everyone has the same opinions and personalities.

and im not trying to be mean or rude..

im just trying to be real.

7 5 09

let down

frustrated

upset

blue

hurt