i don`t want to get uppp

i could hardly sleep last night.
i was tossing and turning.
and i couldn`t stop thinking about him
and our relationship.
that it`s over because i can`t wait.
and i can`t have him tell me he loves me and kiss me
when after that he tells me that he still needs time.
he gave me so much false hope, and he lied.
that`s the thing that gets me every time.
a big fat lie.

i had a dream last night
i was looking through the scrap book he gave me
and the pages were all torn out
and i couldn`t find them at all.
that stupid alex girl was in my dream too.
she was sitting there watching.
maybe its my dream telling me that he`s moved and
and that it`s time for me to move on this time.
maybe he is talking to that dumb girl.
i wouldn`t doubt it.
they texted each other all the time
and she told him she had feelings for him.
guess he found himself a new love.