forgive me, first love.

you know, i don`t understand people.
when you`re nice to them, you get nothing in return
when you try to be a friend,
it doesn`t help because they ignore you.
i`m trying to be your friend.
and i`m trying to be funny
and i`m trying to be nice to you
cause that`s all i really want.
i`m not trying to convice you to get back with me
because i know that that isn`t what you want.
CLEARLY, IT`S NOT WHAT YOU WANT.
so i am trying to do the next best thing.
i`m trying to be your friend again.
i know i can`t be your "best friend" again
not right away.
but i`ve never lost a best friend before.
and i won`t start now.
not with you.

you know,
i absolutely
LOVE IT
when people break their promises
or when people don`t keep their word.
YEAH, BIG SIKE.

i NEVER LOVED being less important than chick fil a
i NEVER LOVED coming in 2nd to your precious car
i NEVER LOVED coming after hooka
i NEVER LOVED being put after beer pong

but for some reason,
i loved you anyways

how did we go from this:
From: .Jordan.
Date: Nov 4, 2007 11:35 AM
hahahhaha u gay face. i hate u ! hahaha.
but for some reason i freakin like u so much..
hahaha .im gonna tell everyone not to comment yours =]
OMG HI ! hahaha miss u....

to this:
Jan 4, 2009 12:21 AM
"grow up. i LOVED you.
im done now though for sure
cause you`re being really dumb now"

exactly 14 months later