3 30 10

idk how i feel. just because i miss you, doesn't mean we're meant to be together. me missing you every day is not going to bring you back. i definitely know that.

3 21 10

not knowing who you are anymore is the killer part.

3 15 10

everyone was right. they were right. they knew i would get my heart broken all over again. and in a way, i think, i knew that it would happen too. but i was willing to let it happen. because sometimes people do anything in the name of love right? fine, maybe that's corny. but it's so true. i let it happen, and i definitely had it coming because i'm the type of person who will do almost anything for love even when i know that it may get me nowhere or even send me backwards. i don't blame anyone but myself. but i'll be okay. i'll get myself through this again. with the help of my best friends, i hope. unless they're already too tired of me and my hopeless antics.

so it's back to not existing in his mind. back to being invisible. and ill have to deal. ill have to be okay. i just wish i knew how he felt. i wish he could actually talk about HIS feelings instead of criticizing mine.